22 Dec Spiritual growth-level five
During this time, I enjoyed a close relationship with the Linda and Glen Welsfords—my evangelical friends. They knew of my love for Judaism, however, not of my growing dissatisfaction. Once, I made a curious request of Glen, saying, “I know how much Jesus means to you, but, I’d appreciate it if you and Linda wouldn’t pray for me. It’s a boundary issue, and an invasion of my privacy.”
He said, “Well, Gail, I didn’t know you thought so highly of prayer.”
Deflecting it with a glib remark, I left before extracting the promise. All the while, a staccato-like drumbeat pulsated steadily on my soul.
Here, my story backtracks to the day Linda came over and suggested that I read the Gospel of John. Disturbed over the anti-Semitism, I rushed to the bookstore and found Yancey’s book, Where is God When It Hurts?
Yancey recapitulated Wiesel’s experience of watching the young boy die on the noose. While he identified with Wiesel’s anger at God, he suggested that Jesus, in giving His life on Calvary, hung on the gallows next to the young boy. While God on the gallows connoted the death of God to Wiesel, Yancey saw it differently. Though this paradigm shift gave me food for thought, I let it languish in the back of my mind. First, I wanted to explore two stumbling blocks—Christian anti-Semitism and the exclusivity of salvation espoused in Christianity.